(via likeneelyohara)
so, this photo of me was blogged by likeneelyohara. which is awesome, i totally love her, she posts great stuff. she has posted a picture of me from the same night before. i don’t mean to sound cocky, i’m not exactly sure why this photo was chosen (it’s not my favorite from that night) but i’m appreciative nonetheless.
because i’m a stalker, i went through the notes to see all who has reblogged and liked. some fashion bloggers reblogged (rock on!), and then some weight loss blogs reblogged me.
i almost feel bad. i never thought i would be the one to be looked at for “thinspiration” or any of that stuff. i don’t know, i just don’t think i want to be seen as ‘“ideal” to anyone. i think i’m grossly skinny, i could put on some weight, i’m 90 pounds, 5 feet and three inches tall. about 20 pounds underweight. which is normal for women in my line, we’re all long and skinny. that’s about it. i didn’t realize how tiny i look until this picture was taken.
i don’t know why it bothers me. maybe it’s me being self conscious. i’m not unhealthy, i just don’t think anyone should aspire to be as “little” or “thin” or whatever have you as me. i think curves are beautiful. i’d be okay with curves, a waist or maybe some hips. i’m a waif. but i’m okay with it, i embrace it rather than sit and wish i was different.
there are sensible ways to lose weight and then there are unhealthy ways. i don’t want to be looked at and “inspire’ (sounds awful, doesn’t it) people to unhealthily diet. not cool.
no one is going to see this, i just felt compelled to put it out though. i’m glad neelyohara digs the picture and so many other people do too.
